This post is dedicated to my future husband.DIEGO..AHAHAHAHHA

Hello im back...this post is dedicated to my future beloved husband who says he is so willing to give me anything i want...even an elephant.! yes..he said so.

So baby..you said it right..i can choose which side i sleep on.. and what colour i want for the walls..DONT FUCKING REGRET THIS AFTER 10 YEARS!
MUAHAHAHHA

This is my dream house.. very cheap only lar sayang..ahahaa

So nice right =) just make sure our kids dont bang their heads on those rocks due to the depression they might inherit from their mother..ahaha

NOw this will be our room...

So pink and pretty... when u sleep on this bed baby, you will lose all your manliness.. ahahhaa.. you still want me to choose and dont care? lol.. ok ill go on

This is my dream bathroom...

So beautiful right...something like Twilight house they have in the rainforest..


owh wait...maybe i prefer this one

waaaaa!!! =)...i love it..



and baby..you know i love hello kitty =) can we have this?

PLSSS?? OWH I KNOW..make it easier for you...

WE CAN HAVE 3 BATHROOMS..ALL OF THE ABOVE!! still wanna let me do the choosing/? ahahhaa

I want this as our living room.so nice...and warm

OWH AND A LIBRARY TOO...

and i want books...everyday...ok? =) cause you say i can choose whatever i want...ahhahaha

here comes my favourite part...THE KITCHEN!!

lOVELY AINT IT? =)

owh and baby..since you know i eat so much...u have to go shopping...to feed me..and make sure my fridge is like this..

and if i see an empty place..i will make sure you will have no sex till im full..ahhahaha


owh and you can have this fridge since you love beer

But you have to keep it outside..i dont wanna ruin my pretty ceilling trying to push this thing in..ahhaha


STILL WANT ME TO DO THE DECISION MAKING???

OK
=)


U said i can have a tiny elephant right baby???

awwwww..so cute

we can have it..so our beautiful daughter Misha'il *like the girl above..* can play with her favourite pet.


OOO..I WANT PANDAS TOO...

and how can you say no to this baby...

awwww...

AND CAN YOU ADD THESE 4 TO THE HOUSE TOO????

MUAXX..I LOVE YOU

but most importantly..i need you in my house cause without you..i wont have anyone to love or torture or do my house work..or give me sex..or take care of me..or buy me book. or do WHATEVER i say.!!

ahhahaa

YOUR BILL FOR ALL THE ABOVE WILL BE
23647681749827487492 *GOD knows how much more* euro dollars

HAPPY WORKING!! =)

HAVE YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND IN LETTING ME DO ANYTHING I WANT IN FUTURE??! AHHAHAHA

NIC sayangs birthday.. part 1

So my sayang...finally turned 18..omg..so long it takes now she finally gets to go to MOS..which happened last night..and it sucks NIC..big time..music wise..lol

The girls who gave her the cake..excluding me cause I SUCK..lol..
Then we went to the beach on that same night of her birthday...my gawd..

To non malaysians...this is the beach at PD.. its pretty much clean at night cause you cant see anything..but in the light..gawd..it reeks..

This picture of TV is priceless.ahhahaa

Loitering at the beach..look at nic..so cutee...ahhaaha

I LOOK EFFIN HAPPY HERE..lol..cause of booze.

jumping time.. =) jeswena was not in it..cause she was taking it..lol..awwww..poor girl

NO...I WAS NOT POSING neither iss Que trying to grab me.ahhaaha

The very drunk moments

IN the end..we had fun... thanks to some booze from NAGA that he sneaked out from him house that i called the booze my husband.. i wish i had my broom there too..to sweep the sand..

next up.. NICS PARTY AT MOS..

Baby 6th months

BABY THIS IS A REMINDER FOR YOU TO TELL YOU THAT YOU SHOULD SEND ME MORE NEW PICTURES IF NOT IM GOING TO START PUTTING UP TINA;S PICTURES FOR YOUR POSTS

btw baby...

HAPPY 6TH MONTHS!!!

i loveee u.

Its coming

December is coming..and im hoping that by the 28th..baby..you;ll be here.

i cant wait to see you and spend the end of the year and the beginning of the year with you

You have filled my heart with joy and love and in ways that i cannot explain.

Yes somehow lonelyness do occur here in my life but when i hear your voice i just feel some sense of warmth and i cannot believe its gonna be happening for real this time

I just want to spend my time with you...just being with you and no one else... cause after months of waiting...for this long..i cant wait any longer

Im praying this works out well as planned baby.

I love you

x0x0

Foundation review

GUESS MY BLOG IS BACK TO BLACK! =)

anyways. Im going to do a review on some makeup products cause my life is pretty much boring these days and i have always been wanting to rave over my dream foundation.

Im a girl who has terrible complexion and after years and years trying to find foundation that will not be heavy on me..and once an avid fan of MAC CONCEALER
which heavily covers my scars on my cheeks..

I have finally found the one

Used by me.. and i have 7 pots of this used up. Im now on my 8th.

I know review suppose to come with a demo and shit but sorry..its freakin 3 in the morning..i have no time for this.

So here are the top 10 reasons why i love this

1. its insanely cute cause its tiny..

2. The brush is small too. =) and soft *if you maintain it*

3. It doubles up as a concealer too.

4. It doesnt look cakey cause its very refined

5. The colour is natural looking unless youre going for the fake look

6. It can get greasy but the look of it on your face doesnt look horrifying.

7. It covers my scars.

8. IT COVERS MY SCARS!!!

9. If you dont rub it.. it practically is kinda waterproof *tested by me and my friend at SUNWAY LAGOON*

10. DID I MENTION IT COVERS MY SCARS!!

hhhaaa..

there you go girls..and guys...=.=

Do try it.

And send me feedbacks on my chatbox if you have tried this or if youre an owner of this beloved pot!

=)

updates

MY BLOG IS UGLY...UGHHH GLLLYYY..!

nothing much in my life..i went for halloween as pocahontas..but i didnt take pictures..very sad indeed cause i was very pretty.hahaha.

Currently right now im blogging nude.. cause im lazy to change clothes.

Nothing much in life has changed. Same ol same ol.

The boyfriend has been good.. watching me sleep everynight on skype.

And im gettin addicted to Michelle Phan.

Go visit her website

www.michellephan.com

You wont regret it.

ill try to blog more soon k.

Lovessss

Sayangs

*because you dont take anymore pictures for me so i have to use this..hehe*

Baby =)

Youre my angel. My love. My life.

The one who showed up in my life and took my breathe away.

You changed my world..and how you did it.. we both will never know..but u did.

Its HAPPY 5 MONTHS DARLING..

and even though we suffer being apart from each other, and still manage to even fight at some point cause i was stupid, yet i still love you and i know you do too.

Im happy cause even when youre far, u manage to take care of me.

Like you banking in cash for me =)..hahaa..but i keep it...and well some i slowly use to buy somethings i need like food.

I love you darling..for all the sweetest things you do and the lovely things you say.

For making me sleep so well everynight. Cause you are my angel. The one that made me grow.. and make me understand how to see things in life clearly. And turned my negativity in to positive.

I love you sweetheart.

HAPPY 5 MONTHS!

HAAHAHAA

PICTURE OF THE DAY! AHHAAA..NASRUL NASRUL!..AHAHA

btw he is the coolest security house detective ever.

he even calls the toilet his HQ.=.=

Thank god he doesnt have a blog cause he has been asking where is this photo now the whole day.ahahaha

Azlan is leaving =(

Im sad that Azlan, my supervisor is leaving FCUK =(

He has been the best supervisor any living working creature can ever ask for. Never fail to make me laugh.

And also the whole Fuckson.

No more talking bout EPL, or gossiping about weird secrets about people around Fuckson, and also, im gonna miss stories bout World Wars and intersting facts revolving around Hitler.

Best of all, he makes work that use to be a living hell for me into something i love.

=(

Okie la..im sounding like he is dying or something. Lol. And the best part is.

We can do this to him and he wont kill us for it!! hahhahaa..

* well he deserves it cause he did the same to Meng's card first!*

Lol.

FCUK AINT THAT BAD LA

On monday, i was deported by my company , FCUK, to One Utama FCUK for one day. To replace somebody there.

First feeling. I miss Fuckson, aka, Parkson

Anyhow...one hour after arriving there...my mom suprised me by showing up with my aunt, and i went out for lunch with them.

Obviously. Im not gonna dig my wallet and go eat lunch alone.


SO we headed to Sushi Zamai whatever its callled

i can never get a nice piucture of her...she alwyas diggin or eating something.

i was so so hungry so i had all of these below.

COLD SOBA.! =)

ok..to tell you the truth la.. at first when i worked at FCUK, i thought the girls clothes were ridiculously horrifying cause my department was at Sunway.

So all the clothes damn auntie ah soh kind.

SO my first impression. YUCKS SUCCKS FUCKS!


But i tell you ah.. * must put the aunty slang*

when i step in to the ONE U shop, my head went bonkers.

I LOVEEEE IT.

Not to mention la..the guys clothes were uber hot and nicer.. and extremely hot.

SO in the end of the day..it didnt suck that bad. I was very at home actually. Amin and Hafiz who were working with me *which i sadly i didnt take a picture with them cause later they will call Azlan and ask why your part timer so weird wan and all.* they were very nice to talk to and they made life there fun for one day.


So Hafiz asked me..try la some clothes. When you go back to Sunway you wont get to try all this nice nice ones.


OK LA..SO I TRIED.. ONLY TWO

You tell me la..you think you can find this RM600 something sexy dress at Sunway ah?

And this one also. Thinking of old ladies at Sunway shopping for this and wearing them and asking us

" ah boy ah girl is this nice ah?>"

I WILL SHUT BOTH EYES AND SAY VERY NICE.

ok..so in the end of the whole ONE UTAMA WORK TRIP.. it wasnt that bad la..this face was made cause i really did miss Fuckson =(

But im back there now =)

weeee

lowlife

Im my own worst enemy. I never fail to criticize myself for being the weakest link that i am.

At this point of my life. I feel like im not complete.

The whole thing is making me want Diego to be here with me right now to complete me. Its getting to the point of the 5th month and im wishing that he could just come here.

Its hard..seeing him but not being able to hold him in times when i feel so lowly bout myself.

Baby, i do wish you could be here now.

=(

WHERE DID MY CBOX WENT???!!

Lights, the day before

SINCE WHEN ESHIA HAS BEEN SO FAMILY ORIENTED?? AAHAHA

so the day before Deepavali, a very normal thing i would go to my grandma house, dad's side for some prayer for the dead.


not going to talk bout that.

Holy freakin cow... i love crabs

LOOK WHAT THE COW BROUGHT IN THIS YEAR. Amir!

My favourite 8 hour mutton rendang. YES..COOKED AND PREPARED FOR 8 HOURS BY MY GRANDMA

Banana leave that we all shared

AND A VERY UNNECESSARY PICTURE OF ME! =)


hahaha.i know im getting boring now.

Ohw ya.. Ling ah..can u do me a favour by keeping my atm card away till december.. =)

on a nice sunday

I went to my aunt Jenny house to have a nice dinner and to pay a visit to my girls.. the 5 and 6 year old munchkin cousins of mine whom i ditched them on mooncake festival due to work.. *which i still feel bad*


So yesterday was basically my makeup to them day.

This is Sabryna. High tendency of hiding behind her pillows and her smelly pillow as she calls them

This is Salynna. She has very irritating ways of hiding away from camera. or purposely take miserable shots of her. She jumps or pushes you..gawd knows what.

And this is me. Lol..see how i know how to stay still..ahhahaa..just blabbbing.

Okie ..so here comes the food.

The usual.. the added ingredients for the PANMEE.. got the minced meat with the black fungus.. belacan.. i shall mention more bout it later.. spring onions..which i hate third to cucumber and lettuce.. and fried onion oil.

Now nothing beats home made pan mee..

So...bout alot of those ingredients into your bowl..




and...



WALAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i ATE 2 BOWLS. I WAS PISSED HUNGRY

My uncle Terrance and the two monsters. Note that the small one is glancing at you. She has this very weird habit of taking one bite of her food..then she glances at one particular person at the table..and she does it till she finishes.


YES I WAS TALKING BOUT THE BELACAN.RIGHT??

This very spicy irritating bugger.. its actually the best thing IN THE WORLD.ahhaha..
My aunt had gotten her maid to make this.. And whats strange is that... the previous 2 maids she hired also makes KICK ASS belacan.
So if u want a maid that makes kick ass belacan.. let my aunty know..i think she has weird instinct of knowing which maid makes awesome belacan..hhaa


and the belacan gave all of us fucking runny noses! =(

So after dinner.. my sister fell asleep..i was dragged to play with this two.

Something for a change this time rather than jumping on their very colourful double decker which has a stairs! not ladder stairs.! BOY I MISSED THAT BED..

ITS GONE NOW.! APPARENTLY IT BROKE AND Sabryna told me that

ME: WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BED??

SABRYNA: ITS BROKEN!!! BUT THE LEFTOVER OF THE WOOD *note she used the word leftover for a 6 year old im in shocked* KAKAK USE FOR GARDENING..

i just stood there...ermm.. bed wood...gardening..okie..

SO WE MADE NECKLACES IN THE END.

i love them both.

video for you

Im back.! My life is not boring..its just that im too lazy to upload pictures or copy paste or save them and shit.

Anyways.. ive got something to share with you girls. Or guys if youre interested in makeup and being gay or just helping out the female society.

This was actually shared by one of my guy close friend. ahahha.. dont wanna mention later ppl know he kena bully.

At first i went WTF..! Are u turning gay.. whats wrong with you.. u have a thing for hot cute asian girls i know..haha..and all the bla bla bla comments..but turns out..im hooked on her channel now.

So check this as a preview..if u like it..suscribe her on your YOUTUBE. She is very informative. =)

some updates

I got a feeling, that tonights gonna be a good night.

When i walk in the club all eyes on me,

Im with the party rock crew all drinks are free,

There is a she wolf in disguise,

Coming out coming out coming out.


Just some lyrics.

What to say..i had a blast at Maisons on Thursday with Nic and Ling. And also not forgetting my Kartel crew =)

Im still awaiting for the pictures. Had so much fun but i was pretty much gone but not wasted but gone enough to know that i couldnt remember much half that night due to a heavy load of drinks on empty stomach.

Went Mango Jerry for awesome bak kut teh..thats all i remember..lol.. but i couldnt eat much.

Played Sony Wii till 7 in the morning. Crashed at 7.30 and got home at 2pm.

Was so fucking tired i had to skip work due to the hangover.

but i had great fun.

And a night only kept hidden.

muahahahhaha

Seek

i still seek for the dejavu.

even when i know it spirals down lane

Rules of a wild child

I fight a battle field.

I dont give up easily.

Once you get me started.

I keep on going till the sun comes up.

I live every second to the fullest.

I push my limits.

Cause i dont have the chance to do so.

And when i do.

I dont turn back.

Thats the rule of a wild child in the hidden closet.

Beware cause she lashes back

i have a boring life

Nothing much lately. No. Seriously. Nothing much.

Ling dropped by for lunch yesterday while on my break.

I wanted to cut hair but scared.

I had my eyebrows done.

I have green contacts.

I made headbands. Instead of buying them at Diva for fuck 29.90 ringgit.

And..now im gonna watch Selena continue from yesterday morning.

Heart to heart

I have many things to say that i have been wanting to tell you. U might have heard some before but i dont care. Its 2 more days and im counting to it. 4 months baby we've been together.

Its not a normal thing for us. By now we should have thousand of pictures together, having our night outs, and movies in the cinema together, eating out and just having your arms around me whenever we are out. Just like normal couples.

But infact. We are not normal. We may not have the physical bond which is important but we have something that is far more beyond beautiful than that. We have each others heart and understanding.

We learned to understand each other first as friends. We helped each other in situations. You made me smile when im down. And i made you smile when youre down * i hope i did* =)

I still remember the things you did for me baby. Although youre far but there are things u did for me. Remember the day i was feeling so down. And you had to go to the gym. Instead you cancelled it for few days just to talk to me. I remember how you planned to send the necklace eventhough it failed but the thought of you doing something makes me melt.

I remember the first tears that shed from your eyes becaused you missed me. I couldnt hold back my tears too. Baby.. every message you sent to me i still keep it.
From the very first day till now.

I miss your text messages saying how wonderful i am to you. I use to wake up every morning to your messages. I miss that baby. This is getting so hard for me. Not by day but by seconds. And when i do..i just simply pick out a message u sent to me and just read it.

Im sorry for everything i did. I wished that day didnt happen. I wish i could have just waited for you and shut up. You dont know how much it hurts me to see your so mad. anyways baby... just want you to know somethings that have been going in my head that i dont dare to tell you.

I love you.

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RAYA SAKE

Selamat Belated Hari Raya peeps! =)

one word for today.! Extreme!

first..some useless update on my stomach craving.

IM actually craving for Seafood Aglio Olio platter.
...

So Raya..i was in the mood even im not malay. And since i had demands to wear Kebaya.. so okie la.. i decided to wear to work.

and i added my 4.5 inch zebra heels. Cause my flats were meltingly wet..and drenched..

I stood 10 hours with heels..well..when there were no customers...i walked around the shop barefooted..I DONT CARE.!

So these are just random updates. For fun sake. And Raya ofcourse. =)

loves

HMM

WOULD YOU GO THIS FAR?

Tops

My oh my...its offday today. And its raining heavily. Im having a blast with dad's new turbo blender. Blends everything so well. I made juice today. just cut.. put whatever and BLEND!

BTW...have u done your votings for me yet?

Take a visit to the site below

www.broadwalkmodeling.com

And click on my picture. Eshia Kar Mun, 20

Create an account.

Verify it

And then vote =)

It only takes up 2 minute to complete.!

So do your part now and vote for me today!!

And help me make it to TOP 30 next week =)

as i was looking back

You two were my life.. my everything.. and my preciousness... and still youtwo are.. =)

Sorry Ling...ahahaa..i had to..this is like..;priceless

Candy freaks.!

How i miss clubbing at Mist...

And chillin at the studio.

And treasured moments.

Back to the time when free beers from Dj;s were the best resort =)

Best gathering ever ended up with pukes.. =)

My super duper awesomeness Kok Fei..

This women has no pity for me at all..dammit.

Nic and i!!! i love u sayang.

Back when Mist was the best thing every Friday cause of the massive stage and awesome music

At Goddezz club...we were there..and now the club is bankrupt.lol

Another Mist night..lol

The best night ever..no doubt...minus the part i danced to Neyo Mad..and slip and fell on the floor..such embarrasement..
It was Kartel's last night at Helo Bali..


Things have changed alot.. as they say friends come and go..but i do not believe in that for now.. for the friends that i have right now.. are the ones im gonna stick with..for the memories of them that i had. will never fade and we will relive it again.

I love u Nic and Ling..alot and alot more than u can ever imagine.

This post is for you two =)

im TOP 100

last month...i was at some taylors dance thing..and i was handed out this card.

So it says some online pageant thingy..so...

I MADE IT TO TOP 100..

and now.. all i need is your beloved votes..from the people i love..

PLS..WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES 12 AM on the 8TH Sept...

visit here

www.broadwalkmodeling.com

and VOTE..!!

thank you and loves to the ones who supports =)

GOD BLESS

Sandy

I miss Grease. I miss how pretty and simple a love story can be.

Here is my favourite song from the movie.

It makes me so emotional..fuck!

Bubble mix

The boys did it again!

U know who im talking bout.

Deejay Biggie and Mc Syze.

Their new second mixtape after Panty Drop is called

A.U.B BUBBLES 'THE MIX'


Click on the link below to download your copy.

Havocness!!!



http://www.zshare.net/audio/6457539685180e30/

i have a high tolerance level but not to this.

y@uw…Jeruk B

8/24/2009 12:31 AM

To: Eshia

can i fuck u..???


See this ??? This is what i do not like to wake up to every morning..there for i dont log in to Myspace..

This is what i replied the shithead with... seriously..

hey you ...of course you can fuck me.. in your dreams.. but i dont think you can satisfy my needs so start fucking yourself you dumb moron. You think a girl will get turned on by your stupid lines like... can i fuck u and shit like that.. U want a decent girl..start using your lines properly.shit head

Note that i have to say of course you can fuck me.. cause to give him hope.. so he will open the mail to read it and be happy,...and come to realise that he is not gonna mess with me anymore..fucking retarded guys these days

To guys out there...not all..to the fucking retarded ones expecially the rempits..the ones who think that they are so specially hot and popular and pretend to be gettin all the chicks..

You want a decent girl..stop using lines like that and it only makes you a pathetic loser. If you are still desperate for some sex..go to the sex shop and get yourself a fleshlight..not that you know whats that..

So go for prostitution if you want. Ohw wait..not that you can ever afford that.

stupid shit heads...mess with my day

subtle

I know i have lost my mojo for blogging.. i really really lost it.

Damn. Its the second day of work..and im already sick at home.

My last spending before my work yesterday.

Im officially working now at FCUK PARKSON at sunway pyramid. I hate only one thing about that job.

THE FUCKING ENTRANCE IS JUST INFRONT OF ME BUT I HAVE TO USE THE STAFF ENTRANCE WHICH TAKES AROUND 10 MINUTES CAUSE I GET LOST. =(


Well... remember my chicken wings..my ugly tattoo i had.. the faded one. the one that looks like some kid used a pencil and terribly drew on my back..



I GOT THEM FIXED LAST SUNDAY. !!!

Thanks to Benny from Inked.

aint this beautiful =) ?

Nicole and Joei went with me to make sure i was not that scared...

thanks girls..

okie la.ill try to update more soon..

xoxoxoxo

Happy anniversary

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary baby..

i love you so so so so much...

muaxxxxx

I wish the distance would end now...

so i can come home to your heart which i call home.

=)

sometimes..

Sometimes its gettting harder by the day. Its almost gonna be 3 months. But part of me just feels like..its been forever.

Im sorry that i over reacted. I just dont know how to act certain times. Its a bit hard for me to handle this sometimes cause im new at this kinda relationship.

But i know i can handle it.

=)

within the 27 hours

Within the 27 hours..

I DID NOT SMOKE

i kept my last cigg in the drawer. So i dont see it.

So what did i do to past my time and to stop thinking bout the smoking.

13th Aug~

8.59pm : i took my last puff.. and i put if out cause i got sick of the taste..weird isnt it.

9.00pm- 10pm : was still at Nic's.. and then i went home at 10

10pm- 3am : ate fried rice..cheese..drank yogurt drink.. ate again.. watched youtube.. bite my nails.. called Diego.. text nic.. searching high and low for that damn cat.. went to shit.. bathed.. watched MJ on youtube and started crying..called diego..and went to sleep.

14August

3am- 10.45am : sleeping...

10.46am : got up to pee * dont ask me how i remember but i do*

10.50am-11.50am : went back to sleep

11.55am : got up.. and bath and watch youtube again.

12.30pm- 1.30pm : watched youtube..im a sucker for talented kids..and ate a whole load of cheese and crackers like a freaking mad parrot.. craving for ciggs..

and you knowwhat..i went shopping..and came home and still not smoking..

i got crazy...i decided to play some Beethoven song that i never touched for 8 years..

its on facebook if u wanna hear it.. i suggest you dont cause its rusty...and Nic says it looks fake cause the camera decide not to show my fingers.

owh well.im now listening to MJ ROCK WITH YOU for the past one hour. its rerunning...im insane..

i have no words to explain this

Just some updates.

1. i am still at Nic's now. Been sleeping.. eating..eating.. spending time with the Nic.. and her mother.. and playing Transformers 2 and Burnout on Ps2

2.Went to watch GI Joe with Nic.. GO WATCH!

3. Been thinking alot about Diego...cause that fella of mine.. came back for one day.. and then went back to Sergovia again.. dammit. =)

okie...gtg..bored

give em alittle update

So... i have been off from blogging for quite some time now.

Baby is back from Sergovia and he left me with hefty lot of pictures.. and three cute videos. But he is leaving back there again tonight and will be home on the weekends.

I have officially stopped work!

and will be hibernating at Nic's for she wants me to..lol.. more of i want to cause i can keep her mother company.. and get tortured by Shawn weird antics such as cutting up his toys with the kitchen scissors.

Here are some pictures.

This is my favourite picture of Carolina and Jaime.. the really noisy 1 an half year old nephew who was practically yelling at the top of his lungs while i was on the phone.

God i love his legs... llol. Leg fetish.

Its the anual family gathering..so next year..im there.. =)

Oh and i dugged up a very very insanely cute picture of Nic..

...

hahahahahahahahaa... CUTE RIGHT??

* i bet she gonna kill me soon*

And this...this..was my birthday present that arrived at KL.. But there was not fucking note to ask me to collect it.so now its back to Spain.

And he is wearing it now.lol..

read it close to see..lol..

okie..gtg now..my fingers cramp..

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IF YOU DONT WANNA WASTE 3 MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE, DONT READ THIS

4 more days. Thats what you told me. 4 more days.

I cried... i teared..i could hardly eat.. i could hardly sleep. Every hour you miss call me.. and i wake up cause i wish i could hold you with me at night when i sleep. Hoping to make my nights better.

Im learning to be stronger each day..to hold on...but when i think about how we are not the normal kind of couple that we dont go watch movies together, we cant hold each other, you cant wipe my tears, we cant kiss, we cant do this and that and those things that normal couple do.. it hurts me to the point that every part of my heart breaks.

I know its not about sex this time. Its for real. Call me psycho people.. but i do love him. He reads my mind. He remembers everything. And for once..someone wishes me Happy Anniverssary when i actually forgotten it.

I miss you Diego.. just too much. Remember that time when you didnt have the webby for 2 days..and i was begging you to bring it back from Helion's house.. it was horror to me..eventhought you were online.

But now..its 1 week of disaster. For once i go home, and all i do is check my mail. Blog for this long.. and go to sleep.
I miss staying up talking to you till 3 in the morning..and you wake up at 3 in the morning your side to talk to me when i wake up.

4days goodness gracious.!!

Anyways...Nicole Aldeth Main.. pls get well darling.. drink more water..and stop eating Nasi Goreng Kampung cause its damn heaty okie..

Love you.

Mucho Mucho Besos =)

smokes

~The pretty flowers you took for me..cause you cant give it to me now.~

Its been one night..i survived the first night without you. Technically just not seeing you. But its already bad enough that youre far.

Anyways..i know youre loving Sergovia.

Work.. they dont give me enough full days.. Its not very pleasing since you only earn 4.50 an hour.

Its fucked. Now its either i wait for Nic sayang job at Fcuk..or ship my ass to Cortelfield.

Whatever that name is called and althought its the same company..but i think the manager is better..and the pay hopefully.

Anyways..im off to work.. damn broke..im gonna eat Corn today to keep me full.

CANT WAIT FOR SYZE'S ALBUM..

lovin this time...

anyways..go check out

http://www.youtube.com/user/kartelhitmentv

show them some love

A LITTLE MIDNIGHT FEAST

This is a very delayed post..so sorry..lol.. was like 3 weeks ago or some some..

At nics house..having a blast..with Nic and Que and Aunt Doris.

she made us cempedak goreng at 1 in the morning..its so good it makes you go like this

....

Lol..ahaha Que..lol..



and Nic made mash potatoes..it was ..er...nice..ahhaa

No seriously..its nice..


YOu know they say..like owner like dog..

Lol..that rat dog of her's keep copying her move

Watched 17 again..and guess what.. after 30 minutes..im half dead.. Que went home..and then we just didnt finish the movie. lol..

Over loaded with food that night..but it was awesome

Bring my heart

i wish he doesnt have to go to Segovia.. for a week or two.

Damn..and there is no line there..so all i can do is call and text.

No more video call for me and you. Till u come home.

The heartache.

But i know youre gonna be fine there.. with your parents, Tina, and Carolina and your cousins.

Just hope you have fun..and miss me as much as im going to miss you.

Have a safe trip there..and bring my heart along with you..

x0x0

updates on a little bittie me

i dislike my job. Literally. To the point i just wanna burn all the clothes..and just make a big fire in the shop till the building burns down..lol

NO seriously!

Anyways.. I was over at Nic's last night.. as usual..the late night gossips..and snacking on chocolate.. * well only me*

I watched half of Ghost of Ex girlfriend Past..whatever the name is..

and

Hotel for Dogs..

lol...

makes me wanna buy all the strays at the pound now..

I miss Nic..alot..lol.. and im gonna head back to talk to Diego now.. i know my life now has no longer been parties..

Owh ya..last week we were at Cynna..Kartello Hello ppl...packing mad.. thanks to Syze..we got in..

lovey you all.

x0x0

BOREDS

Currently listening to ~ Im the shit by Lil John, Dj Class and Jermaine Dupri

Breakfast~ Koko crunch..very masuk angin.. and lemon with honey..and cereal drink.

i got up and searched for Stewie..to bath that fucker.. damn bloody black already

i ended up bathing myself.

Anyways..today im going to work..and then rest my head at Nic's and then work again tomorrow..

MY LIFE IS SO BORING NOW..

I REVOLVE AROUND CLOTHES.. AND IRRITATING CUSTOMERS.

Kartello Hello =)

Its my off day. so i headed to the studio with Syze to finish up his track.. his precious song.Lovin this time.. really lovin it..

And while im at it.. they are browsing through Youtube..


Owh and after being missing from the studio for about almost one month..

Note there is a Ps2 now...!!!

Played Tekken 4 with all them dudes.. and well...i beat some of them. *let me brag*

especially i won *ahem* Syze..some rounds..

See la the tension faces..lol..

Anyways..it was all fun..and Bone still owes me dinner..lol

which he shall accomplish by next week.

All the best for the rest of the tracks and beats Bone and Syze

* not like you guys read this*

lol

peace out..

loves

nicole

Dear Nicole...

lol

im bloggin from the studio now.. so dont say youre not important to me..

lol.

i miss you sayang..alot..and Happy anniversary for you and Jack..

all the best..i know you guys will.

Love you dear..

Lovess

lol

Currently doing ~ nothing....waiting for Syze to fetch me to the studio to redo somestuff.

Just ate ~ miso soup with egg and mushroom sausage.. ice cream potong.. and a whole load of chocolates.

Got up at ~ 9.30am to talk to Diego my darling Leoplurodon.. and i got freakishly hyper due to the chocolates..

and now....

im watching

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL CYCLE 12..

LOL

new stuff.

x0x0

loving this loving you

Tako balls for lunch today... dammit..im freaking broke..lol

Baby..

Sometimes i wish ppl would invent a teleport so i can go there now and hold you.

I wish many times that i was just living next door to you, and whats more better...with you.

I wish you could drive me to work.and pick me up and spend time with me like normal couples do.

I wish that whenver i cry..or im sad..i have you to wipe my tears away.

I wish that when im happy..i have you to celebrate my joy together.

Its hard being so far apart from each other. Many people think this wont work. or its ridiculous..or its just impossible..or even just an imaginary thing..but baby...

this is alli have to say

" When i love someone...i love them..no matter.how far the distance..how hard it is or how painful it is. I love u so much that even if i would have to take a bullet for you or scrap my knees walking to you i would do it.

Cause youre worthied. Youre worth my wait.

and.. one last thing baby..

One day..all of this wishes i just said above..will happen...very soon..

cause im gonna make it reality for you and me..

i love you

diego

My dearest Leoplurodon.. Choo choo shoe loves you!! =)

Happy 2 months... webcam or no webcam...

I still love you...

We both went out on our anniversary...lol.. how sweet..i came home sober and youre drunk..lol

but indeed these 2 months
and also the past other months before we got together..

You weere always there.

i love u

and stop saying sorry just because you left you webby at heliion house..

Im suprised you walked home with your laptop AND didnt get rape and got your laptop stolen... =)

I lovee u

Mj's little starlet

ive been wanting to post this video for so long!!!.. Its WADE ROBSON!!! WHEN HE WAS ONLY 8.

He joined the dance like Mj contest when he was 8 and he was handpicked by MJ himself..and the prize... he gets to meet the King of Pop himself.

Watch the video...and let me know on my cbox what you think

Diego

Baby..this goes out to you.

I cant wait. Im really praying that i can be there..by october.

Youdrive me to do the craziest thing in the name of love.

Which is to travel...across the globe

for you. Just to be able to see you, hold you, and feel you. For real.

I cant think of any other perfect moment that i can say there is till i finally get to be in your arms.

This love we have..its a killer. Its painful. Its torturing. But when i see you, talk to you, hear your voice. You take that pain away.

i love you

some thing perfect

13th July 2009

May all you girls cry..hahaa

Channing Tatum..the hearthrob of Step Up and GI Joe..has officially married his soulmate Jenna Dewan.. the lovely co star of his on Step up.

May i wish you two love birds a perfect paradise life.

x0x0

Cry girls..cry!!!..ahhahhaha

Always up to something

Current mood- Dead. very dead. *thanks to Joei's Fabrecol im drowsy as hell*

Listening to - Gone too soon by Mj *yes im still not over it, and i cried almost as much as i cried during my grandma's death*

Im currently sick. feverish.but im still talking to Diego. Cause i miss him much

My plans for these four months.

June pay - pay back debts. lol. and also buy myself a new phone.

July pay- Save..

August- Save the money again

September- Save =.=

October- Save =.= and make passport.

and hopefully by Oct 23rd.. i can get my air tickets to arrive at Barajas Airport at Madrid, Spain.

as a birthday present for my baby.

and to Bone...if youre reading this which i know you wont..lol..hahha..

Im sorry for holding you up on the beats. Ill come by the studio very soon k..

and have my very belated delayed birthday dinner..lol..

and Syze...my pay come out we going to eat Beef Ball noodles..!!

okie..im off to talk to my Diego..

loves to all

x0x0

Nics Nics

Nic!!! big girl already ah..!!! Your so called big sister lovees you very much k..

I know i dont have the credit to text you already..and i know im off.. but im actually having fever right now. I had to sleep for extra minutes at work..

*even though i know you wont read this in time cause your computer mati*

Anyways.. have fun at college..which i despise but i know you seem to take everything in a positive way.

Dont fret eventhough you have to wear formal clothes. lol.

You still look sexy.!!

I love you sayang.!

Have fun.

Quicky

Baby!!!!! i want this...!!! lol..and your necklace has still not arrived yet!!

I love you.

Lol..i have lost touch in blogging...after Mj's death..my fingers went numb..and everynight i come home im either busy at Nic's house going to eat..or too tired..or talking to Diego..

anyways...here are just some random captures of whatever that has been happening.

This is how i look now.. ahhaa...still no difference..

This is Nic at work!! yes..she worked with me for two weeks or so..and then she left me alone...hahahaa...again..

My birthday money well spent on.

This Forever21 dress that i still yet to wear..

and one more sling bag..but i forgotten to upload the picture.

You will see me carrying it around if you bump into me anyways...

This dress...oh look..the bag is there...well just the sling..cant really see the bag..lol

The heart necklace that Joei, Hannah and Nic gave!!!..and the letter block necklace which spells Diego that i made...and the my piano key..
Put it all together..it says...

Diego has the key to my heart..

Get it get it!!??..lol

yes im still lame..

This was my birthday lunch...chicken rice..

The cake freak!!!.ahahhahha

Hannah and Joei..

Forgive Joei for she always has very disturbing pictures of her eating..

The cupcakes which they suprised me with...

Lastly..ahh..i miss Jourell and Nat alot.. they were down for my cousin's wedding...

anyways...this is all im updating you people with..lol..

You know you love me..

x0x0..

ahhahahaa

Michael

I know my blog has been temporarily dead for almost two weeks.

I did this because i wanted to mourn for Michael Jackson and now that he is finally put to rest in his secret place. We should all start letting him rest in peace and move on.

Its going to be hard for me and many of us who adored him.

I watched his funeral last night. Cried like a baby for 3 hours. We all miss you Michael. I know i have never met you.

But my dream of making it large and to see you in the music industry. Now its trully shatttered. Meeting you has always been my dream since i was a kid at the age of 3.

Seeing the coffin. Seeing the crowd and fans and your family and friends during your service.

You made it into each of our lifes Michael and your legacy of music will always stay with us.

We will miss your laughter, your sense of humour, your loving music that brought all the entire world and races together. You wrote songs of meaning. Songs of wisdom. and peace.

You are not gone entirely.

Every piece of you that you carved in our heart will always carry you in our lifes till we die.

August 29th 1958~ June 25th 2009

We miss you.

x0x0

MJ

Michael Jackson,

i broke down when i found out you were gone. I couldnt think straight. I just wanna say that you were the one who i run home everyday to watch your video's over and over again for 3 years till the video tape broke. i didnt need to see doctors when im sick cause watching you makes me feel alive again. You were always the one who amazes me and inspires me in music. Youre my idol.

The world now is so quiet. So shattered cause we lost our King.Every tear sheds for you. Everytime i hear you sing now makes me wanna cry cause i missed the chance to see you in 1997. I had your cup, you magazine, tour tapes, and now its all gone. I dont know where it went to after we did spring cleaning. But you will always be in my heart.

I will always remember that night...when i knew you were at kl performing...we drove by the stadium..i cried...cause i was not there...to see you.. perform...i came home drinking for the cup where it had your picture for the whole night.

I can never forget 25th June 09. The day i heard Nic telling me you were gone. My tears. My heart. Shattered. I avoided the tv. cause i dont wanna cry. but i cried..in the bus..all the way to work. I adore you Michael.

You inspired me to do my music. You were my favourite singer and always will be.

You are not gone in this world. You will always live in our hearts.

No one can every replace your title. Youre legend to us and you ROCKED OUR WORLD.

Im still dumbfound.

Love

We are not like other couples. We dont hold hands. We dont kiss. We dont hug. But all we do is talk.

and being there for each other as much as we could. Sacrificing our sleeping hours for one another so we could just talk more.

Some people dont believe this would last. Some may think its stupid. But for us we know no matter how far we are.Our hearts are always next to each other.

I can never tell you how much you mean the world to me. How much i appreciate you for all the sweetest things you do. You may not be here but sometimes it feels like you are. I just close my eyes for a moment and i see you.

Call me crazy people but i love this guy very much. He made me smile. He showed me how love is suppose to be. Its not about the physical things but its by the heart.

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY DIEGO PALACIOS GOMEZ.

TE QUIERO MUCHO MUCHO.

you will always be the only one in my heart.

You made me smile after being a stone for a very long time.

Youre my drug. my addiction. my love.

x0x0

Some of the things

Currently listening to : Kartel Hitman Panty Drop 1.0 Mixed and Screwed by Dj Biggie

with Mc Syze.

Click the link below to download it. Trust me you wont regret it.

http://www.zshare.net/download/616120471273f0a2/#

SPREAD THE KARTEL GIFTS.!!!


Any ways... im up early.. but my baby had to go to Leo's house..so..

yeah..im gonna blog abit..

But not much...cause i need to go to the bank to open account. Yes im 20 and still with no account.


Went for my cousin Melissa's wedding.. and Natalie and Jourell came back from Canada.. and im happy to see them both..

Will update on the wedding soon.

Baby...i lovee you..and i miss you..

NIC IS WORKING WITH ME TODAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

gawdddd help meee..

ahhaha

x0x0

the government needs to import Hottopic

Currently listening to

M.I.A ~ Bucky Done Gun

Okie...i think seriously..the government needs import more brands..

And most importantly..

HOT TOPIC.!!!!

See these awesome heels.

These are my favourite among the bunch.

Harry Potter Griffyindor cardigan.

Ohwww..... Lil wayne is my mentor..lol..i loveeeee this...


For more....

visit..

www.hottopic.com

Smoking rehabilitation success

I made it.

24hours of not smoking.

=)

Last night instead of taking just one puff..i ate 3 biscuits with chilli tuna, one glass of lemon juice, and some other craps.

Now soon im going to be fat. lol

Great the vommiting feeling is back

Smoking rehabilitation

i challenged myself not to smoke for one whole day.. well not 24 hours la...just during work and till after midnight.. now its 1.34 am in the morning..

And the last puff i had was at 8 something in the morning...that was only like.. 6 puffs.. and now im starting to feel sick.. giddy and i wanna vomit..

Oh my gawd.. i have no more ciggs left.. i feel like throwing up.. .

x0x0

Tribute

Some days i feel like a blank piece of paper.

But you coloured me and made me something beautiful.

Some days i feel like black raining cloud.

But you pushed it away with your sunshine and brighten my day.

Some days i feel like total trash,

But you pick me up still and turn me into your art.

Some days i feel like the world is ending.

But you gave me every reason to start believing that its not.

Some days i feel useless.

But you held me and let me know that im your world.

Diego...i love you so much.. more than anything. You always find the best ways to make me happy. I know youre not here in person..but how much you commit to make me your everything...touches my heart more than ever.

Te quiero mi amor. you know i always will.

x0x0

Im damn bloody pisseed now..
....

i was fucking waiting for the tattoo guy...and just about to reach 10.30...my dad cancelled it..saying its too late..

WTF IS THIS YOU TELL ME
..

YOU CANT FUCKING WAIT 30 MINUTES IS IT..

I FUCKING WAITED 9 MONTHS..AND YOU GIVE ME THIS SHIT..

I CANNOT TAKE IT..
I WANT MY DAMN TATTOO FIXED NOW!!!

Jaiho

Okay...i got home...was a bit pissed cause i couldnt find anything to wear for the club house wedding...

Then..my mom told me..that my grandma..wants me to wear this very very Jaiho indian suit....me likey..but i wish i could skank it up a bit so its a bit sexy..but...nevermind..

OWH THE THINGS I DO FOR MY BELOVED GRANDMOTHER..

Diego

Baby...its getting harder everyday.. i miss you...everytime i hear your voice..it just makes me smile..

But at the same time makes me sad.. cause i cant be with you right now..

I love you so so much..i will never forget you baby...pls understand..we can make it work k..

As much as i know you want it to.... love you so so much..

IF YOU THINK IM AWESOMELY BORING..DONT READ

Just because im working...doesnt mean i dont have interesting shit to write on my blog ok..whahaa...interesting it seems...

I was suppose to go for my cousin's hen night at Quatro i said im tired..

Was suppose to go to Helo Bali for Michelle S birthday..but im tired..sorry girl... Happy Birthday ya..loves..

Was suppose to go to Euphoria with next door shop workers... lol...but im too tired..

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME..I USE TO PARTY LIKE MAD...NOW IM LIKE SOME OLD HAGG...lol..it rhymes..

So any ways...let me bore you with what i had for lunch today..

I had some of these... cheap ok....so thats why i bought...i still havent got my pay..

This only cost me RM1.20
FOR
15 PIECES...whaahaha

A can of Milo... RM1.40


And now...introducing my new love...the cheapest of them all..and it bloody last me for one whole day..

Eshia shall never go hungry again..

Its the FRENCH LOAF...THE BAUGETTE... HOW EVER YOU SPELL IT. i may be working in a french shop but that doesnt mean i must know how to speak it..

Usually people it this long thing with butter..or vinegar... or mushroom soup..

But...i love my long thing with..

...
..

YOU ALL CAN GO WTF?? NOW...LOL

Yes people.. i have a weird taste in food..i eat Pringles Potato Chips with bread...

and i also eat Crab Crackers with nasi lemak..

So dont be freaked out if i love my anchovies crackers with my LONG THING..


how do i eat it anyways..

To get to the perfection taste..you rip your Long thing aka the French bread.. like this..and put the cracker on top and just eat it la...omg..so easy right..



OKIE IM OFFICIALLY BORING NOW..


So ...mom asked me to find a dress at the mall for the wedding... and I DONT LIKE PROMOD CLOTHES... the shop im working at...

But then...on wednesday.. i fell in love...with this blue jungle looking maxi dress

Its the new arrival..

I was thinking in my head " eshia eshia..no no.. you never liked Promod clothes"

But this is for real...its love.. at first site..it came out from the new stocks boxes..and my heart just melted..

i rang up my mom just today....told her to come....

and now..


I have it ..wahhahahhahaahahahahaha....

xoxo

a last weekender post

Some pictures from last weeks Saturday..

Went out with Joei and Hanna..

Lets just say Joei ada duit finally so she doesnt have to eat Maggi mee anymore..whaaahaa


Went to Williams.. Hanna picked us up

Pleas forgive her very obscene face..lol

Awwww.... Hanna...see so cute...JOEI WHY CANT YOU BE AS CUTE AS HER..ahhahaa..kidding la.

I only managed to take the pictures of the food..

So this is it

Joei's balls...ahhaha...meatballs...it oozes with cheese..

Hanna's fish and chips..i know...wtf right they serve in roti canai plates...wtf..ahaha..but it was nice. best ever tasted

AND this is my lamb...lovely and tender ...and HUGE...lol.

Thanks Joei for the damn dinner... owh ya..the tampon incident...ahaha...nevermind..i shall leave that out before she makes my life at work hell..

After that..we headed to Helo Bali....called up Monkey to get us in..and we got free beer again...and i was the only one dancing on the bar top...again...

And i wore my Impanema slippers to a club.. i know.. there is always a first for everything...lol

Was a good night...thank you you two....HANNA....GET YOUR ASS BACK TO WORK ALREADY..

x0x0

Some things

Today.. work is killing me.. i sleep on shoe racks during break..and wake up cranky..

Am at Nics house now..Jacks birthday..lol..19 year old already...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIRAP!!!!!!
*i still have no idea why i still call him that*

ANYYWAS...i got up so early at 7 in the morning to talk to my baby.. cause I WONT BE TALKING TO HIM FOR 3 FREAKING DAYS!!!

Baby..i read what you sent to me...give it one year k..then we plan everything..the whole thing.. i really want this to work. i love you so much.

I know its weird..youre so far... but i fell for you.. i did and i love you so so much. Im sorry if i make you upset by crying during video calls.. cause hearing your voice and seeing you smile...and not being able to be there holding you.. the pain is unbearable.

Im happy youve passed the exam...im so proud of you..!!!

Come home soon k baby..

Te quiero mucho mucho mucho...

Besos

Chicken am i

This is so unnecessary.. lol...Tv and I..yes im a nerd..

Yes the chicken i was making for Nic and her mom..yes apparently she was mad at me..lol.. IM EVERY GUY'S DREAM WIFE OKIE...SEXY AND CAN COOK!!!... Diego my baby you better fucking agree with me...if not....ill chop you..


Yes i love touching chicken.

The end result..

WEEEEEEEE

X0X0

Some sorta post

Im bloggin at Nics. Why arent you all surprised by now.

Im currently..

Making Joei hungry.. being irritated by Shawn.. and looking at Nic uploading embarrasing pictures of me.. I SHALL MAKE YOU PAY FOR THIS..

and also looking at Diego's cat while he is out shopping with his beautiful mother .. and i decided to wake the lazy cat Tina up..so i nudged. And she woke up..lol..then she ran away..

NOW I GOT NOTHING TO STARE AT. Dammit!

i cooked today...for Nic and her mom... lol..she is uploading cooking pictures soon.

I stole this picture..lol...i find you sexy okie baby...so DONT HATE ME FOR DOING THIS IF NOT YOU CAN FUCK OFF..hahhaa..

Youre the best thing that has ever happened to me. I hate the distance..i really do but you making such a great commitment to wait..

I love you with every part of my soul. Sometimes it gets too hard to bear just seeing you but not being able to hold you.

But still i love you more each day. You made great afford to make this work despite im damn busy at work.

Youre everything to me.

x0x0

This picture was taken during the night me and Nic went for Jacks bro's surprise party.

More pictures at Nics blog.. scroll my bloglist and find for Fallen Angel..

*wtf my arm look so fat in this picture*

Hello.

today im going to talk about myself. If you really wanna know me more.

SO FOR THOSE WHO ARE NOT INTERESTED AFTER READING THE DAMN LINE ABOVE. BUZZ OFF.! hahaha

Firstly.. im a girl. FUck you all whoever thinks im a guy or some drag. ahhhaa..cause i know i wear eyeliner these days and im getting a hang of it.

I hate sleeping. I find it a damn waste of time.

I love my sirap ice hot. Go figure.

i dont wear pink..like as in those *im so pretty pretty pink* put i love them pastel pinks and neon pink.

I despise people who are mentally retarded in their head. No not like the real mentally retarded people but those who thinks too highly of themself.

I love Nicole.hahaha.. *she is going to run to the washroom now to pour acid in her eyes now when she sees this*

I love Diego. what more can i say.lol

I dont like Jack for showing me how to play PETER ANSWER.

I despise going to work cause im always sleepy.

lallalala

continue when im back from work.

a little studio moment

had a day at the Kartel studio again..

This time singing. With Syze's cousin and sister.

Yeah..damn tired and a little bummed out.

Lets just put it this way.. those butterflies just drowned

Mi amor..
i know youre far away..and i miss you every single bit of my time.

Wish you could be here.

Te quiero mucho.. thats basically the most i can say..lol

for now..but im learning.thanks to you..and my books..and some stupid online audio learning system..

omg..my blog is getting boring.

Its the inside out

Currently listening to : Buzzin by Shwayze

Mood : Sleepy but still on the net *waiting*


Craving: Love, sex,...haha kidding.. pizza actually.

So about today.. let me see... i mean.. Thursday..lol.. went to work..bla bla bla.. as usual..

Fullshift..God dammit.

Went lunch break with Joei and Hana.. bloody sshits all not working with me today so i was pretty damn bored and sleepy.. but im glad they came..lol

Today..i wore my work uniform like this

....
..
.

wahahha...it was freezing cold.. and i got weird stares..but WTF WHO CARES..

i didnt buy ciggies.. my box lasted me for 3 days. omg..i actually promised Diego that ill stop but baby..im so sorry...slowly can??

I know.. yo tambien te quiero mucho.

=)

Tomorrow its offday and im heading back to the studio again with Syze this time.

Willl be doing some vocals for his Lovin this time track..my favourite...

x0x0

YOu know you love me..hwhahhaha.....whaatever..

Nic and Ling..i miss you both.. Nic when in the world you coming back..

some extra off time

Today is my offday. I finally have the time to stay home.

For once im going to say this.

I HATE SHOPPING MALLS

Im in a mall for almost 9 hours everyday and sometimes 16 hours and trust me.

I hate it now.

So i got up at 12pm. Took my nice time.. to bath. and look for Stewie to disturb.

....blablabla..

Yes i want these two.. from Charles and Keith.

A very unrelated picture. smoking break at work. Hana left work. Omg..
HAAAANNNAAAA....IF YOURE READING THIS..GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE..

hahha..if not ill make you spend me more at William's mamak on 6th...lol

And to mi amor Diego Palacios Gomez.. im waiting for you to get your ass home from the dentist.

i miss that smile of yours already.

Te quiero.

okie..im off to sleep for an hour..lols

x0x0

Been very busy..tired..and phone no credit to reply anyone.

updated dates

Its been awhile sinced ive blogged.

HAD BEEN SO DAMN BUSY.

i had been staying over at Nic's house for days..now she;s at China.

damn it...i miss her.

I have someone now.. finally. doing it long distance.

Been up all night tilll 6 am in the morning web camming. I love you baby..

I was at Kartel Studio again today.

Did some beats for Tbone.

and he is teaching me dj-ing for he wants more female dj's

SO imagine scratching the same tune for 2 hours straight and the same song.

Using the old dj-ing machine.

Hand pain.but its worth.

x0x0

Been having lack of updates lately.

Cause i dont know what to do.

Been tired...sick and sleepy.

Im at Nic's place for two nights.. got kicked out from home

Not cause of that. Cause house under renovation.ahhaha

is having imsonia attacks now. In the midst of imsonia-ing at Nic's house.

Blog skins are irritating. They piss me off.

" Sometimes being treated like a princess... all the time... doesnt work on me."

now. im confused. i still love the one far far away.

blood ties

Here is the lowdown on what im thinking right now.

Two blood related persons.

Both i use to deal with.

One i was in love with

One i was physically attached with.

Now i told the one i used to love about the other one.

But i never told the other one bout the loved one.

Now i feel stupid for the mistakes i made.

I cant seem to pick between the two.

For one has been there for me when i needed him but now he knows bout the shit i did cause i told.

And the other one just is.. my confusion.

ARGHHH!!!

no one will ever understand me.

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boys and bad and charmers

WHY DO I KEEP WANTING THE GUYS THAT ARE CHARMING BUT ARE PLAYERS??

ive got a guy who is a friend of mine whom i just recently met and he is treating me like a princess..

but..

somewhere somehow...i want that bad boy.. that very bad boy who i got for just a few minutes... but things didnt turn out the way it went.

I dont think he cares.

OMG..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

Some iranian feast

i dont think i got over the whole dressing up as a school girl thing so i went to work like this..lol


I had a great lunch today. Went to meet Pooyah..and when i reached.. the food was already cooking. But i was just assuming it was some other customers food.

Then..he laid out two plates of rice. A plate of kebab.chicken and lamb.

Two glasses of drinks.

And i was like...owh youre that hungry huh.

He was like..

We are eating lunch together today.

awwwww...

Then after work..i dropped by to his place again.. cause he told me to..

He made shisha for me.. a flavor that is not on the menu.. MELON...!!!

and he said.. you smoke it with me k.

I was llike...im leaving in 30 minutes..

hahaha


Today was good.

And to my sayang.. dont worry...im glad i called you at the right time. Im always here for you k. Loves


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what kinda detention is this??

WHAT DID I DESERVE TO GET MYSELF INTO DETENTION??!!!!

LOL..


was at Barclub...straight after studio session. Had 30 minutes to get ready..

the dress code.. :School girl. well for guys...school boys la..

Headed to Barclub. It was Monkey and Ash's first night way from the Kartel Crew. So we went to support.

and Brandon was the MC.. it was fun.

despite that i was sick..havent eaten the whole day.. and had cramps..

Sexy straight A student..

Sexy school rebel..

We are the hottest school girls..hahahhaha

Sexy Geek..

Then the competition starts..

And the straight A woman won..

and her so called Dan Humphrey was there to show her some loveee.. my eyes are blinded now.

CALVIN YAW CHRISTIENSEN..AKA..MONKEY...WHY ARENT YOU IN YOUR UNIFORM!!!?? YOU DESERVE ANOTHER ROUND OF DETENTION..AHHAHA




and this is what happens when these people steals my camera away while im busy somewhere else.. and come home with all these pictures...llol

=.=

Last picture..

NEXT WEEK... Mist!! Tbone's birthday...

watch out.

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Detention rocks.

Lines, Beats, and some jazzy shit

I spent my thursday over at Nic's place..

Then headed to the studio on Friday around 2pm
to help out TBone with some stuff..

i went there without knowing what song i was suppose to help out with..

So when i got there... i was told to help out in two more other tracks of Syze's album.. so i was more than happy to help out. Played in some lines and beats.. so it was all cool..

And i helped out Bone with two more of his new beats. It was tiring..but well spent day.. got home around 9pm.

Then we headed to Barclub...

Updates and pictures on Barclub coming to you soon..

X0X0

this picture is taken at the front cashier.. and work doesnt stop me from camwhoring.


i realized that there are really such thing as OLDER DOESNT MAKE YOU WISER.

case for example.. that someone.

Ling and Nic should know who im referring to cause he was a pain in the ass.

I just hope sometimes he would grow up and learn to appreciate all the damn things i did for him.

My feet is sore now. confirm mati pucuk kaki. Is there even such thing??
lol

lol..tomorrow im spending the night at Nic's so i can get my ass to the studio easier.. and then head to Barclub with Ling on friday cause she fucking promise that Malau aka Monkey..aka Calvin Yaw Christiensen.

and then after Barclub.. dont have to sleep la.. just continue with another fucking fullshift for the next two day.

Some some from some some

im damn tired now.. gtg work tomorrow full day

i miss partying.. i miss dancing... i miss the booze.. i miss the chilling out.

I shall update on today's happenings tomorrow as soon as i get my tired ass home from work.

" You know it was just a physical thing and i know it too..but somehow..
I still cant get you out of my mind"

THANK YOU WILLIAM CHIEW for bacon and Ling for chocolates..

and Nicole.. you went to Bukit Jeletung today is it..lol...never come today also..

Loves people..

x0x0

damn damn butterflies

yes aku rindu.

I really miss it all. Stupid as it sounds but i really do.

I may not see you or know much bout you but somehow i dont know why.. i crave.

Craving for that whole BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH FEELING.

Every music i hear...reminds me of how i dance to the rhythm of your tune.

I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU SOON .

im feeling damn off now

a little some some something

i was sick. at work.

And a very sweet hot guy dropped by at my work place to give me panadol and 100 plus.

So sweet right..

lol...

Now im stuck with fever. and aching feet.

Tomorrow shopping.. as usual... adding it to the tab and woman dont worry...end of the month..

aku janji.

And to my sayang Nicole..do get well soon darling. Dont go China la.. later get SWINE.

*i massively still like you. gawd i wonder when am i gonna see you again.*

Milky Saturday

Sushi for dinner.. after work.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELISHIA MEI SZE YONGENDRAN!!!

youre finally 18 now.

NOT LIKE YOU EVER CLUB OR DRINK... pffttt..


gotta teach you... lol

kidding la



So we had dinner at Sakae Sushi.. sucks.. but what to do..

she wanted Japanese and it was dad's BIGGEST FEAR.

Sammy joined us... I LOVE MY SAMANTHAWEEWEEWAAWAAHH...lolll

see...seee...i told you he hates Japanese food..

HE ACTUALLLY POSED FOR THIS. =.=

my mother..as usual....damn anti social...hahaa...kidding la

Yeah i love this picture..i look cute.as always...perasan case.



COME TO PYRAMID AND FIND ME FOR DINNER TOMORROW!!!!

GAWD PEOPLE...DONT YOU LOVE ME ALREADY..!!!


WAHHAHAHHAA

and to my beautiful jungle friend...you know who you are..my sayang..

i wont go back to that person la..i wont...stupid enough to nearly die once but not stupid enough to do it again.. i love you too sista..

and to that Panda ....stop calling me at 2 something in the morning and laughing at me cause i sound drunk when i was actually dead asleep and mumbling "erm...erm..ehh.."

love you both..

x0x0

Risk

* You made me tear when you held me close*

You got me missing you so badly.

But i just pulled myself away from you.

Cause i dont wanna get hurt.

The worries you see in my eyes.

Are not what you think they are.

Im just worried of falling all over again for you.

I still love you sayang. Regardless the shit we had to go through.

I still love you.

But im just scared.. to risk it all again if i were to run back to you.

Works a Loads

Yes i still have time to camwhore while at work.

Work was great today.

Im addicted to folding clothes now..

But i dont know why i cant seem to fold any of my clothes at home.

This is how i dress daily. Yes!

If you wanna catch a glimpse of how decent i dress now.. drop by at Promod Sunway Pyramid.

William was so happy to see me all covered up for a change.

I DONT HAVE A CHOICE FUCKER!!

Anyways... thanks you Nicole, Ling, William, Tee Jowee, Ivy Yap, Jasweena, Tiffany, Michelle S, and the more to come for dropping by.

Love you loads.

The rest of you.

GET YOUR ASS AND TAKE ME FOR LUNCH CAUSE EATING ALONE IS NOT VERY FUN!!!

lols

x0x0

Lovin this time

what a day i had today.

Was off from work... so ...headed to Kartel Studio at 12pm to help out Syze with his awesome..

I seriously mean AWESOME.. OR HAVOC as they say it, track.

Its practically stuck in my head now.

Was there.. messing around the keyboard.. yes the KORG TRITON.


and we finally got the song done. Its a wrap. for me la. cause the song needs some more vocals in it. cause i only did the piano

Syze and Tbone


After that.. i helped out Bone with his beats and add some so called spice into it.

ahahaa..

It was awesome.. very relaxing. I love being in the studio. So relaxing.

Got home around 8.30pm

Then... had dinner with someone and i just got home.

Overall it was awesome. I love it.

Thanks Syze.. and Bone for believing in me and letting me do my shit in the studio.

=D

X0X0

GOTTA GO WORK FULL DAY TOMORROW..

COME SEE ME.

PROMOD SUNWAY PYRAMID.

lols..

rsvp me for lunch.. and dinner.

2 breaks tomorrow.

LOVES

Just got back from work.

Had fun today.

Despite standing on my feet for 8 hours.

Now my brains are so fucked up and tired.

Thank god tomorrow is my off day.

Gonna hit the studio tomorrow.. to do some music...

Relaxing..

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Sounds of Nerves

I get that pump in my heart whenever i hear your voice,

I know there are many times i was left with choice,

Should i tell you or just leave it behind,

Or just tell you that youre someone so hard to find,

Could it be that my love for you will never fade,

This is not the guy i use to date,

Im referring to someone who has been there for me,

Someone who taught how to set my heart free.

" If only i met you earlier in life, i would be the one holding you tight"

x0x0

SOCCER CRAZE

this was what went down..

After work...chilled with my besties.. ling and nic..

Then went to APT with Nic and Jack..

CAUSE LING IF YOURE READING THIS!!!...

I AINT GOING TO PAY BRAT BRANDON aka MONKEY'S GAY PARTNER 40 BUCKS JUST TO CUT MY FRINGE.!!!!

BROKE WOMEN!!

but we will still go visit him la.. just to record our Narlie... video...lol


So....

Nic " wanna go watch football tonight??"

Eshia " OK.. till what time?"

Nic " 5 am"

Eshia " ??????.... can i sleep in your room for awhile?"

LOLS

So yeah...MAN U was playing with Arsenal.

we headed to AC.

Yes she is a die heart fan..

i use to be a die hard fan of Man U..until Beckham left. =.=


The whole time during the match..i was like...

I WANT CHELSEA!!!

Then okie fine... i decided to support Man U

But everytime i see Fabregas...

OMG...

I WAS LIKE...MY BABY BOY...HE SO HOT...

Nicole and people sitting next to me was like giving me weird looks.

Jack!! give up la... Arsenal tak akan menang punya.. even the flies at AC bunuh diri at the zapper cause they no eyes to see.

But Fabregas damn hot right??!!

we should do this every week.

NOW MY EYES FEELS LIKE ITS INFECTED WITH PUS...

its just an explanation of how badly i wanna sleep but i cant cause i have work

We can make it thru life of shit

Sometimes life we have to give ourself anesthetic cause it can be a pain in the ass.

But come to think about it... if we endure the pain a little more longer it only makes us stronger.

I have gone through ass punching, heart ripping, real life abuse, nearly jumped of the 18 floor, wrist cutting, flu pill overdose, drug taking, love losing, LIFE.

But non of these has ever once killed me.

Well it nearly did.

But we can make it pass everything we are willing to endure in life.

Shit Happens.

I aint gonna kid with you.

even to the toughest nigga's in the world.

But we all can survive it.

x0x0

Envie me...and us..lol

This was on Friday. Yes we headed down to Changkat..

And boy was i drooling over hot hot foreigners.

Seriously...you want hot men or gorgeous girls...

Go CHANGKAT!!

Some dude sat next to me and told me that the dance floor.. can be used to play Tetris or some dancing game like those video games on Monday and TUESDAY

And i hate hate hate trance music.. That explains why i never go Freedom or whatever so called Rave parties.

And i dont pay to get drunk and puke.

i know la im damn cute..lol

x0x0

William's 20th Drunkardness of Fun

Ahh....yes..the three...before we were drunk at William's birthday..

well i was drunk la..not them..lol.

Had the nights at Picadillies.

Yes. we had 9 towers of this.

You know what is so pathetic in my life..

See..



William has Ling

Nicole has Jack

And i....



i have this..

a blooody boyfriend who cursed me and got me high like this..lol

Yes boy we know youre old now..dont have to toast it.

ahhahahhahaa..how i love EMBARASSING PICTURES OF MY DARLING BESTFRIEND..!!!! AHHAAHHHAA

We love you William Chiew despite the both of us were the drunk ones..

ITS TOO EARLY!!!

Guten Tagk!

its 7.30 in the morning..i gtg go work soon.. Yes finally after browsing shops by shops asking

"DO YOU HAVE VACANCY!!??"

i can finally hang those words up in my closet and actually work now.

And im going to be studying at British Council. Learn how to teach kids.

My dad has already planned to set up the kitchen as a study room..my gawd...

SLOWLY LA!!

" i remember how it felt telling you the shit i done,

It was hard cause he was your close one,

My body was jittering in pain cause i know i will lose you,

But in the end it was the truth that i needed to show you."

Say hello to HELO BALI =D

IM GOING TO BE REALLY HONEST WITH ALL OF YOU.

IM ADDICTED TO..SERIOUSLY ADDICTED TO

BUBBLEGUM NIGHT which is a saturday..

at HELO BALI!!!

Laura..the sexy Columbian dancer.. gawd i love her. She made us VIPS NOW..!!! muaxxx..

We all started of with our free drinks.. then..Monkey told me "eh come you all chill here la..i bought you all beer."

HAHHA...yes my face was smiling despite i told everyone i didnt wanna drink anymore after William's party which i will update why later.

And it was also... Dj Ash's last night with Kartel.

SO yeah...he decided to splurge us with drinks.. like..DRINKS!
Thanks Pingu...ahhaa..or the HAYAYA GUY.!



AFTER ABOUT 4 VODKA LIME.. 8 TEQUILLA SHOTS and 1 glass of beer later..

.....

Monkey and his GRAVEYARD

Jack tengah syok sendiri.

Dj Monkey a.k.a CALVIN YAW CHRISTIENSEN!!!

Ash and i.. and the dancers..lol

sayang and sirap..

Yeah..blowjobs..whatever tradition this is..im serious.its really a drink

MONKEY YOU MAKE MY DAY!!!

My 2 favourites.. Syze and Monkey. You both are awesome

Highlight of the day.

Mark my words. I FELL. LEGS UP ON AIR!! ON THE GROUND.

AND...now mark my words..

CAUSE THE FLOOR WAS WET. NOT CAUSE IM DRUNK.


Then..

" Syze...im damn tipsy la.. COME LETS TAKE PICTURE."

Ling says its cute...lols



Mamak.. in the car..Monkey was mumbling alot..

and at the mamak..he was asking me when am i gonna teach him to swim and play piano.. He called Nicole ....MONICA!!!..hahhaha

Brat Brandon... Monkey's so called gay partner..

HOW I LOVE MY SO CALLED LAST NIGHT OF PARTYING..

i got a job at Sunway pyramid at Promod.

Do visit me. Im starting on Monday..owh wait...that means in hours from now..


GTG HEAD TO SLEEP.

X0X0